I woke up suddenly as soon as my alarm went off - which is odd, because it usually takes me a good 10 minutes to really wake up. I'm a stomach sleeper - or, I was. So that morning I woke up with a seriously sore chest. My eyes popped open and the first thought that came into my head was "Oh my lord, I'm pregnant."
I got out of bed and felt the soreness even more. I checked the calendar - sure enough, I was already a week late. I went over to James and said, "Boo, I think I'm pregnant." To which he responded, "Whatever."
"No, I'm serious, James - my boobs hurt like heck and I'm a week late. Since you're off today, can you go buy a pregnancy test for me? I just need to be completely sure."
"No. You're crazy."
I really thought he was kidding, but by the time I was ready to come home I called him and asked if he'd bought the test and he said no. So I stopped by Target on my way back from work and bought it.
The Target employee at the register saw what I was buying and said, "Ooooooo - let's see. Look me in the eye. Yup. You're pregnant. And it's going to be a boy."
I literally LOL'd and said, "Ok, we'll see!"
I came home and took the test, and when I realized it was positive I said, "James....this mess is positive." Again, he said "No it's not - you're lying." "No, I'm serious - come look for yourself." James walked over to me, looked at the test and said "OH MY GOD YOU'RE PREGNANT!" And then he had the deer-in-headlights look on his face. I was suddenly so excited. I couldn't believe it was happening! I was smiling, laughing, jumping up and down, and James' deer-in-headlights look kept on....
We hadn't technically 'planned' this....we knew we wanted to get pregnant this year because 2014 marked our 5th anniversary, and we always said we'd wait 5 years before we had kids. And we had a good 5 years. We did some traveling, came and went as we pleased, volunteered the heck out of our time, and spent money on unnecessary things. So when 2013 was ending, we decided I'd stop taking my birth control, detox from all the estrogen, and then let nature kind of do its thing. Ideally, I wanted to start truly trying in June/July, but of course, we weren't very careful :) and by mid March I was pregnant. It happened so fast - but we were OK with it.
Ever since I was a little girl, I knew I wanted to be pregnant at least once in my life. Pregnancy has always fascinated me. To me, the thought of carrying a life INSIDE of my own body is completely unfathomable and a ridiculous miracle that I will never understand. I still can't even comprehend the things that happened inside my body to form this perfect little human being. It makes me so much more aware of how our bodies are such a beautiful miracle in and of themselves, and brings closer to home the thought that God fearfully and wonderfully made us - with his own hands. He formed us, he took the time to make every single cell and nerve and vein and bone and tendon that is below my skin's surface. I love thinking about this. I love knowing that I serve a God who took the time to do this to each and every one of us. He put in so much time and love....it's truly amazing!
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